I've always said that if I were so great, I'd be doing something great. I'm not being hard on myself here, just honest. I have a long way to go before I can say I did something great.

Tinkering around with ideas is not going to cut it. I need to actively work to improve myself in a variety of ways. I have no excuses, either - despite all I say about my discipline, the fact is that I'm not on the right path with my discipline. I'm aiming discipline in the wrong direction.

I have a long way to go to get to where I want to be. But I know my natural strengths. I know what I was born with. And I know where I'm coming up short.

I may not be able to improve in certain areas, but I can excel in others. Focusing on my strengths is the path forward.

I can't regret something I never had, so I can't regret something like potential. But as long as I'm still breathing, I can turn my energy into something meaningful. I can, and will, succeed.

I won't go into a list of areas where I feel I've failed, at least not here, and not now. But I know that there are two areas where I've been unable to make progress. I can start there, and move forward. Slowly, at first, but with the full confidence that improvement and correction in these two areas is the key to everything. It's a bit like rehabilitation, but I call it "restoration."

And restoration is just what I need.